Let it be known

It seems that I have a curse on when I change guilds someone is bound to get hurt. I know I was a lonewolf to begin with. Although, I found a place that I feel that I can belong.

To Ayatori,

I am sorry if I made you feel that the MISTAH guild is turning into a refugee camp. My reason on joining your guild before wasn’t taken for granted. Never in my life had I thought of doing that to your guild. At first yes it seemed so nice that Liquid invited me to join. For the longest time that I stayed in your guild it grew on me (more of the reason why Neuchi is in MISTAH and not just because the other requested it).

For the time that I spent with you guys and talking idealistic things about how you wish to rebuild MISTAH. That time, it made sense to me and gave inspiration on how I want to rebuild HolyOrder to what it was before. I know already said these. And all those things I said, I think some of you already thought that it's being all too dramatic.

You seeing me now in the ClanRogueWolf might have set an emotion that I didn’t expect. That was not my intention. I know how it feels to be used. That’s one thing I’ve gotten used to in HO (believe me). People come and go, they say.

After two months (or more) that arrowrain, Halcyon, Brion, Krallis, and Iroqouis telling me to join their guild...even tried to be reluctant every time they tell me to move there. I know, I’ve often told this to Krallis that I will be a good captain and go down with the ship. If you want to know and I, actually, want others to know on ‘why’ did I finally decide to join ClanRogueWolf.

I could see the tightness that of each member in the CRW has to each other. That feeling I’ve lost since the other members of HolyOrder left. Most of the time I only spend a few hours training and trying to train on my own... only ending up asking the CRW if I could join their party in ether. In some way, I am shy. I only talk to people who talked to me first. In that way also, I had spent more time with the CRW than the MISTAH as of late.

Whenever I stop by to say hello to you... never and not once that you said ‘hi’ to me, even when I was in HolyOrder. If you think that I’m using your guild as a stepping stone, you are wrong. Though, I never intended to hurt your feelings or the other since I joined the CRW and not MISTAH.

I don’t want any more drama. So, I’ll leave this to you. Again, I’m sorry if you felt that I used your guild. I said my piece, it's up you guys to understand.

- Neoma